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So to all you who just jumped on the post-modernism blogging bandwagon, know that I’ve been blogging since February 24, 2003.

Beat that!

until the dawn…

It’s just a simple green book with brown binding, but it’s the gold lettering on the front that catches you. 

“Where will you be five years from today?”

It is basically a book that encourages the potential that you have over the next five years of your life to do something great. To do something brilliant. It’s full of inspiring quotes and axioms from various famous and successful individuals. But it also provides space to fill in various personal goals and assists in strategizing a plan to achieve those goals.

It really is inspirational. What if we really believed we could change the world in five years? In some small or significant way, we could use what we have to make some form of impact.

And Starbucks itself is. Even in their partnering with Red they are making steps to improve life for others. 

How come as Christians we often struggle with this area so much? We talk about doing big things, but somehow those dreams are laid aside and replaced with practicality and cynicism. 

And even if we attempt, as Starbys has done, to something for the good of the community it often turns into something that is more about what WE are doing, rather than the good that it produces. 

I don’t know, maybe I’m just rambling tonight.

until the dawn….

Well, I am. That’s not an unusual thing to occur this time of the semester; however, this year more responsibilities and duties arise, resulting in more stress. 

It’s mainly time and finances which are lacking, which again isn’t unusual for this time of the year, but this year it’s worse than ever. I suppose it’s just one of those times when you have to lay it aside and trust God. 

I just wish I could enjoy things. I know that sounds really dumb, but I feel as if this entire semester I’ve put myself on such a schedule that I haven’t been able to take time and just enjoy life. 

For awhile I started feeling guilty for not being able to do everything, and as if the stress I was feeling was somehow a consequence of me not being able enough or putting enough effort into things. Subconsciously I felt that I was letting God down on some level, and that being overworked was okay and somehow He would be proud that I was able to take on so much and succeed in it.

But I think I was wrong.

I don’t think it’s God desire for us to be so overworked that we don’t have time to enjoy life, to enjoy others, and most importantly to enjoy Him. This is not providing an excuse for laziness or apathy at all, but I think there is a total difference in that and a balanced life.

I think that is what it boils down to, balance.

If we are balanced financially, we will be able to give to others while providing for our own needs.

If we are balanced in time management, we will be able to give our time, but also use the time we have for the necessities of life and so forth. 

Oh how I long for this balance to return…

…..possibly next semester??

until the dawn….